all of it

oh wow.. lots of stuff!
i have never lived with a boyfriend before..
the other night steve made some dinner and we got a bottle of wine, sat out on the porch and chatted. it felt like home. i think back to the times when we first met and i laugh and laugh. it seems so ridiculous that now we live together. so funny and weird but just so amazingly good. my house hasnt felt like home in a long time... you know it em!

and then today was the first day of swimming for some kids and i happened to get this kid who had all this technical stuff written on his form under "list medical issues.. blah blah". anyway this kid is only 9 or something and he just had his entire bowel system removed! so, poor thing, he has to have a colostomy bag all the time... and swimming of course too. oh my god i feel so sorry for him. he smiles and laughs with the other kids but i just wonder why this has happened to him. his teacher told me that he may have to have chemo..
so im on a mission to make his swimming lessons the most fun and not stressful and chilled out for him.

today it feels a bit like summer is ending.
i hope not.
i havent had nearly enough beach action.
my hair is actually soft.. hmmm

and theres so much more...

patience

today was a strange one.. for the first time ever i went mental at some kids that i was teaching to swim.. i feel terrible. it made me want to cry.
i havent been to the beach in ages and ages - it feels like summer will go and i wont have the beach hair! thats gonna have to change.
im a bit jealous that my big brother got to see my mum the other day. he drove down to the bottom of vic to the boat and got to hang out. now mum has sailed off to king island to eat cheese and yogurt :) she rang me the other night and whispered doen the phone that she was sailing the boat all by herself while the boys slept. go mum!

now though i have a belly full of brocolli pasta and sleep is looking like the best thing in the world ever.