days gone by

today, my first day off in 15 days. i slept until midday.
the last few weeks have held many sleepless nights, wearing the same clothes, not going home for days, non brushed teeth, sore sore muscles, seeing the sun rise, talking nonsense, being totally oblivious to whats going on outside and being completely and utterly over it.

today, i am trying to do all those things which have been left aside... washing, sweeping, shopping, sleeping, sitting down, watching saturday tv, returning phone calls....
emma: yes please can we sit on the beach very soon..
pops: yes yes to a swim and maybe even a spa?
fe: hi :) i will read your blog next..

soon, matty will be here to drink coffee on the porch..
soon, fabi will have a son..
soon, stevo will be home so i can take him out to celebrate him finishing uni..
soon, i want to see you all.. i miss you

my porch is always open for endless pots of tea...

i have been thrown into the guts of fulltime work. 9-5 .. with half an hour for lunch. most days i sit out on the grass with a takeaway cup of soup and a bit of yummy toasted turkish bread. there are magpies out on the grass, one who pretends to be all the other birds in the neighbourhood. she sings and sings, just to me, to show me how clever she is to be able to sound like a kookaburra or a mudlark. i am so impressed that i give her some of my bread. for those moments my head is still, content.. what more could i ask for?
but when its not lunch time, my head is full, overflowing with bits and pieces... so much that i hardly even see the people that walk through the door to look at the art. it's good, i am learning so much about how a gallery works, what makes it tick. maybe even some secrets.
i don't know why people work full time though. it consumes your life. when i try to sleep, i am thinking of tomorrow. when i am driving i am thinking of all the things i have forgotten. and now, on the weekend when its sunny and theres time for the beach i am thinking of monday and who i need to call.

so, i will go to the markets and stock up for the week ahead and look forward to seeing my magpie friend.